Hey Mags, and welcome to freedom2b!

I can understand where you're coming from personally as I just came out to my parents yesterday after struggling with my sexuality for 10 years, pretending to be straight but knowing deep down inside I wasn't. I gave my parents an eight page letter with all the thoughts and feelings I had my whole life and that if I didn't tell them I probably wouldn't be here today. I'm glad I didn't top myself because I wouldn't have learnt that it's ok to be yourself, and I believe I've found the meaning to life.

You'll find a TON of support in here, and it's NOT wrong or sinful to be yourself and have those feelings. I prayed many times to God asking why I felt this way and he never answered me when I needed him the most despite him being there for me every single time, but he didn't have to, because with all the support I found on the internet via Youtube with coming out videos, 'it gets better' videos, and amazing places like freedom2b, I found all the answers I needed (especially intertwining my sexuality with my religion), and I am a MUCH happier and stronger person now. I now know that this was Gods plan for me. My calling may be to help others, I don't know, but I do know that I'm happy with being true to myself and I can honestly now answer many of life's difficult questions, and God will always be there to love and support me.

I still haven't come out to my relatives yet, and I'm positive they won't understand what I have gone through, but unfortunately these days we live in a society that is INTOLERANT and IGNORANT towards others, their emotions & feelings, and most importantly, WHO they are as a person. Like Mike Manning says though, there's 6.7 something billion people on this planet. If somebody gives you $#@! for being gay, or bi, or whatever, find someone else that's going to love you for WHO YOU ARE, cause they're out there!

I've got your back, there's organisations out there that have your back, and it does get better.

There's also a guy on here by the name of Wezflash. He has some videos which may help you as they have done for me. There's also his site

http://www.wezflash.com/

Remember, there is no one out there that is youer than you, and don't EVER feel bad for being true to yourself.

God bless,

Jordan

Hi Mags 🙂 Welcome to F2b……great peeps here and so much resource to choose from…..I too use a w/chair and have done fulltime since 2004/5 i was diagnosed with MS in 1998…..I never thought id find a g/friend/partner having wheels but i did and 5yrs on we are still together and its been great 🙂 My own story is on here 🙂 It really is a journey once you come out and you do get highs and lows but its great to have such a neutral space to talk things out which is vital and importantly, know that God DOES love you 🙂 Keep the questions coming, its good to keep us all on our toes 🙂

Hey Mags

Thank you for being so open and honest and thanks for sharing your story

Warm Hugs

Az

hi Mags…..glad you found your way here as I sugggested. You will get lots of support and help here with these wonderful people. You can ask any question you want…..and get others perspectives. All have been on a journey……many faced similar issues to you around faith and sexuality.

thanks to all your comments and thoughts