Hi Miss Muppet – well – it's been a long while since I have visited f2b – and it's so great to read what's been happening for you.

You said that you feel lonely like "damaged goods" and wondered how you might go about meeting someone…

Boy – I can really relate to all of that!!!

As you may recall – It took me years and years to move out of the life of being alone. I felt quite stuck – fearful – awkward – and idiotic – i couldn't conceive of how i might move out of the stuckness into something that might lead me to a relationship – a different way of being…

So – what did I do? I took some careful "risks" I signed up for internet dating on a lesbian site. I went to meet up groups with lesbian women. I went to lesbian "open house" – a discussion and meeting group.Damaged goods? Yep – having never partnered, having a number of health problems – yes I felt like damaged goods at times…. and yet – I was lucky enough to meet my now partner of 13 months – amazing!!!

My lovely girlfriend has now moved in with me – and we continue to love being with each other.

The world awaits you Miss Muppet!! Stick with it – all the best

Sarab xxx

Just wanted to add that I have tried online dating. Some things went a bit bad but I think it's because I'm learning still. I never dated at school or ever before actually! I'm shy & only now have I started to accept myself. Need to keep reaching out to others but I'm like a turtle & like my shell. Don't like being hurt but in the process you miss out on the good bits too. Surely there are good bits waiting for me.

Hello. I'm.thankful that the difficult times with my neighbor was finished with a few weeks ago. I wanted to part in peace but seems like I caused such offence that it ended badly. Never been through such horrible stuff. I'm still too scared to be outside but at least since blocking them on my phone leaves me in peace. I'll move out at some point. Just want my own space.

I've been in hospital with pneumonia but improving each day. Think the stress didn't help. I'm feeling myself pulling back from people again. Finding it hard to trust. I'm too sensitive & I can't relax. I only feel safe in my own company at the moment. I'm seeing my psychologist this arvo. I just still don't understand how I upset my neighbor. She called my a religious freak & a user. And I've been getting unkind sms from her for months. When I've been nothing but passive back. Just finding it hard to fight the negative feelings. I know I'm unique. I really don't want this to happen again.

Think I'm finally getting it. I rely too much on others. I saw my psych today & I take on other people's stuff. I go to my appt & talk about how others impact on me, I'm far too sensitive. But apart from that, I just don't like myself. So affirmation from others helps me. But that's no good.

I need to be happy with myself apart from anyone else. As selfish as it sounds to a very religious me, I need to work on myself. I have a choice. Give up right now or focus on what makes me happy.

I'm.not sure what makes me happy. Think I should be doing a personal journal instead of writing here.